Trigger warning: Sexual trauma, poverty,
domestic violence
I became a nurse in
2005, but my journey into the profession was anything but conventional. I grew
up in poverty, raised primarily by a single mother, and envisioned a future
that looked vastly different from the one I have today. I initially dreamed of serving
in military intelligence, with aspirations to join the FBI. Determined, I went
to Army boot camp at Ft. Jackson, South Carolina, ready to carve out my path.
However, life had other plans. During my time in the service, I experienced
military sexual trauma (MST). This event changed the course of my life. What
was once a future filled with military service and law enforcement quickly
became a struggle with severe anxiety, especially around uniformed men. Waiting
for my honorable discharge, I worked as a receptionist in a medical unit.
It was there, in the
presence of compassionate, highly skilled nurses, that I found a new purpose.
Their warmth, expertise, and unwavering dedication inspired me to pursue
nursing, despite the immense personal challenges I was facing. At the time, I
was also navigating postpartum depression and escaping a domestic violence
situation, making my entry into the nursing profession even more challenging.
Yet, nursing became
my sanctuary and my salvation. It was more than a career—it was my calling.
Turning pain into
purpose
From bedside nursing
to academia and leadership, I have spent nearly two decades building a career
rooted in service and transformation. I have cared for patients in primary
care, psychiatry, and integrated healthcare. I developed a medication-assisted
treatment program for individuals battling opioid use disorders in El Paso, Texas.
Now, as the CEO and
owner of Samsara Healthcare, PLLC, I lead a practice dedicated to accessible,
community-driven mental healthcare. I also serve as an assistant professor and
preceptor, shaping the next generation of nurse practitioners. Every student I
teach, every patient I serve, and every provider I mentor is a testament to the
power of resilience and reinvention.
Empowered to lead,
inspired to give back
Leadership, for me,
was never about ambition. It has always been about survival, truly about
turning pain into purpose. I didn’t step into this role because it was easy; I
stepped into it because I knew what it felt like to be lost, afraid, and
searching for someone to believe in me. As a practice owner, I
built more than a practice; I built a place where people feel seen, heard, and
cared for, no matter their circumstances. As a professor and preceptor,
I don’t just teach students clinical skills; I teach them resilience,
compassion, and the courage to lead even when they feel unprepared.
To new nurses, I know
what it’s like to question your worth. I know what it’s like to wonder if you
belong. I know what it’s like to feel like your past defines your future. But
it doesn’t. I stand here today as living proof that the deepest wounds
can lead to the most powerful healing, not just for ourselves, but for everyone
we meet. This is why I lead. This is why I choose to give back. Because someone
once did the same for me.
Nursing gave me a
second chance at life, one where I get to empower others, advocate for mental
health, and mentor future nurses. I hope that sharing my journey will inspire
other nurses, students, and aspiring leaders to realize that no matter what
their past, they have the power to create a future of impact.
We are more than our
struggles. We are the ones who transform global healthcare, one life at a time.
Ivonne Espinosa, DNP,
FNP-BC, PMHNP-BC, is the CEO and owner of Samsara Healthcare and an assistant
professor at Texas Tech University. She is a member of Sigma’s Alpha Beta Theta
and Nu Upsilon Chapters.